Can anybody help me with this?

I have always had the idea that sex is ecstatic and a portal to higher consciousness and that by surrendering yourself completely you can find liberation and release. Is this true? What is your experience? Do you know anything about this? Or is it different for you? I really need some help here so if you know something about this, would you please write to me and tell me about it? (info@beamteam.com) Also if you can recommend any good books about this, please let me know. Thanks. All love, Barbara