Here's how I spooked myself

Yesterday I had the coolest experience... I was downloading some super songs I loved back in the 80s and then I started dancing to this one number that I just loved back then - "I'm so excited" by the Pointers Sisters. And well, if you know me, this song is SO ME... cause you see, if you haven't already discovered it, that I do get SO excited at times...  Anyway, I was dancing to this number and then started feeling exactly how I felt back then when I was about to fly off and meet this fantastic lover I had at the time who lived far away from me.... You know that very special feeling when you are going to meet someone you are just wild about and who you haven't seen in a long time. And then I realized, I actually REALIZED, that here I am 62 years old, dancing full blast in my living room all by myself and feeling EXACTLY like I felt 20 years ago... the same excitment, the same joy of life - and I am not on my way to meet some wonderful lover, I am all alone in my living room - and I still have this feeling. I still have this feeling of life and joy. And where's the feeling?? It's in me! Whose feeling is it? It's mine. Whose joy of life is it? It's mine. And all these years I have been projecting that it WAS OUT THERE - and that it depended on someone outside of me. And realizing this, well that is what really really spooked me!

Comments

[Mihkel]

Joy is the biggest achivement that human can achive! How wonderful that You reached to the top of Your highest mountain! :D Dont leave there now! Find new ways to make being there possible! Its all in Your mind right? I belive its easy to find these ways for You! Infact I belive its easy to find this way for everybody! :D